Havnt had any help yet can you help me please i love her?

Aw that's beautiful. truly amazing. That's so sad everything she's been through, i can't believe there's people in this world who have gone through such hard times :/ and i thought my troubles were bad, gosh. That's so nice of you to be there for her and love her and still want her. I understand she's scared and worried that it won't work out cos she's had so much failure in the past and she could lose you as her bestfriend forever, whatever the circumstances could bring for you two. I don't know what i can say to help you, as it's down to her and what she wants. I think you should remain being there for her.. you're not rushing her or anything.. just give her some time.. just remain being there for her and let her know if she's too afraid, you'll still be here for her and love her and care for her. Because i think i can understand why she's afraid to lose you as her bestfriend, cos a relationship/marriage can turn bad, there's possibilities, and being in her state.. she's probably very scare and thinking the worst about things, whether it will or won't happen. I'm sorry i can't help more.. i wish i had the answer but i don't. You may or may not be with her, but atleast she's still in your life and just be happy for that.